He COULD TAKE ME or LEAVE ME!!?

My husband and I are getting divorced after 26 years of being together and has decided to leave. He has left almost a year ago to date and during that time he has been here,slept with me etc tec. Moved back in around Christmas time for a week and a half and woke up New Years day of all days (and right when I found out my dad has an agressive cancer after his mom had lived with us and I took care of her while she had cancer 4 years ago)to say he can't do this he is sorry BLAH BLAH BLAH!! Doesn't want to be with anyone else.date anyone else or sleep with anyone else. Well anyway stupid me since he left AGAIN has been sleeping with him,we comforted each other,etc. Actually he was sick last Monday and I went up there(an hour and 45 min drive) to be with him. So after he tells me he would call at 7 he didn't,then said I am on way home will call,instead went out with friends,then got home at 9 or so and said I will call AFTER the game is over!! Anyway he says in his conversation that HE COULD TAKE ME or LEAVE me! That is pretty cut and dry right?? There is NO BUT or MIDDLE right?? I said why would I want someone in my life who could TAKE ME or just LEAVE ME(esp after 26 years)He said he stills cared what happened to me but has no explanation to how he could take me or leave me. Says he feels like that about EVERYONE in his life. He needs meds and knows it but said why do I have to figure out what I need to do NOW!! Why can't I just NOT THINK!! I said what if I die next week or you a year from now abnd you haven't figured oiut what you want in life(he says he wants no one doesn't want to sleep with anyone or be with anyone,doesn't need anyone in his life) He says well if you die thats what God wanted!! So I guess my question would be am I right to ume when that statement is made that if I am not an inportant part of your life that you could care less if I am important enough or not to be in your life then I shouldn't believe his I STILL CARE and I want you to still be a part of my life?? Right?? Sooo confusing, sooo heartbreaking after 26 years to HEAR someone tell you they COULD TAKE YOU or LEAVE YOU